It been almost two months since the three of use – Brett, Lennie and Paige – have had a support group get-together. A lot has happened in that time. What hasn’t happened is improved health or weight loss. We are still on that roller coaster riding the weight gain / weight loss curves up and down.
The check-in questions for our meeting on Friday were:
- How have things been going for you these last two months in regards to eating healthier?
- What have you discovered?
- What are your plans for the future?
I currently weigh 194 lbs. which is actually 1 lb. less than what I weighed when we last had a group meeting in July. This is surprising since my weight has been yoyoing up and down within a 5 – 7 lb. range for the past two months. I decided not to join Weight Watchers but I don’t feel this was a mistake. Instead, I have been eating intuitively. I try and make healthy choices and I eat when I am hungry not when the clock tell’s me it’s lunch or dinner time.
I have discovered that I am comfortable with my weight. However, I would still like to get to a point where I can stop taking my blood pressure meds and have better ease of movement. My plans for the immediate future are to walk more every week, continue to eat intuitively and to slow down both the way I eat and the way I live.
When I weighed myself Friday morning, I found that I had gained 8 lbs. since our July meeting. I went from 235 lbs. to 243 lbs. It’s not surprising since I have been struggling with the Weight Watchers program but it was a bit shocking. In the past two months, I have increased my walking to the point where I walk every week day on my lunch break and to work at least two days a week. I feel good about where I am at with exercise. However, I have discovered that my food choices have become increasingly worse than they were before I joined Weight Watchers. I have eaten more fast food and frozen food in the past two months than I have in the past two years. I was so focused on keeping my points down, that I lost site of the big picture – making healthy, permanent changes.
My plan for the future is to finally read the book that my doctor gave me 6 years ago, “Intuitive Eating: A Revolutionary Program That Works” by Evelyn Tribole and Elyse Resch. I want to make peace with my food and free myself from chronic dieting. I want to get off this hamster wheel.
Friday I weighed in at 248 lbs. which is a 7 lb. weight gain since the last time we met in July. Strangely, I am not shocked, dismayed or saddened by this weight gain as I might have been a year ago or even a few months ago. I am beginning to understand why all my past dieting efforts have not worked for me. In the last few months, I have realized that counting points is just playing a game with the temporary outcome being weight loss rather than long term improved health. That’s not what I want. I have discovered that I don’t want to merely lose weight anymore. My real goal is to continue to improve my health which includes attaining and maintaining a healthy weight and permanently changing the way I eat and move as well as think about food and exercise. My plan for achieving this includes the following:
- Intuitive Eating – become more attuned to my body’s natural hunger signals
- Walking – rely on my feet rather than my car to get me most places
- Reduce Stress – amp up my yoga and meditation practices
Needless to say, I have quit dieting and am hoping off the weight gain / weight loss roller coaster for good.