Brushing my teeth this morning, I realized that I was avoiding looking up at my image in the mirror. It gave me pause. I know that I routinely avoid full-length mirrors but am I really avoiding all mirrors these days? I started taking inventory of the things I avoid on a regular basis because of my size:
- Sleeveless Shirts
- Amusement Park Rides
- Knee-high Boots
- Yoga Pants
- Exercising in public
- My Health
This is the short list – I could go on. I don’t think that I consciously realized that I was avoiding these things. I told myself that I am just one of those people that doesn’t like their picture taken, sleeveless shirts and shorts aren’t my style and dancing is for teenagers not mature adults – all big, fat lies. Who was I fooling?
What will my kids think years from now when they flip through the pages of our family scrap books and discover that mom is absent from years and years of pictures taken at family events, holidays, vacations and during special moments. All those memories captured by the very same camera that I made a habit of avoiding. Will they remember the invisible woman?
I think it’s time for me to look in the mirror and ask myself, “Do you want to continue to be invisible or do you want to see yourself for who you truly are – big, beautiful, smart, funny and loved.”